Do you actually know who you are? Have you actually sat down and thought what defines who I am? Imagine that you really had to think long and hard about what you stand for? Who you really are? It is sometimes a scary thought. We sometimes get carried away with our surroundings, our life circumstances, responsibilities and usually these things we cannot avoid- however do you look back at your day, month, year or decade and think Wow…..Where did all that time go? I am older but not much has changed, I feel empty, I feel lost, what is my purpose? What is the point of all of this? Sometimes I just go through the motions and of life and kind of run on autopilot? I feel sometimes that we think about thinking too much, we have lost the complete simplicity of life, We feel we are defined by things, possessions, aspirations or status and I am not saying that acquiring or achieving possessions or things or having certain goals is a bad thing, but I think what has happened is that we believe that they define us, that we will be happier once we attain them, when in actual fact if you are not happy and you may feel for a while that
once you have achieved something, you are proud of yourself and you have been successful which is true, you have moved ahead and achieved your aspiration or whatever it is……but that empty feeling or lost sense of self comes back out again it may numbed for a little while.. but it does not go away. I don’t expect everyone to agree with me at all, as everyone is entitled to their own opinions as we are all here individually on our own paths and journeys with our beliefs and that is the beautiful thing about diversity. But I feel with my own experience that certainly was the case for me, until I actually stepped back and went “Who am I?”, and I started to really delve into who I was, looking at every aspect of my life and realised I was not feeding my soul. I was doing what I was programmed to do, not what I actually believed and then when I actually became consciously aware of what I stood for and what I wanted for myself, people around me thought I had gone insane like “what is going on with her?” But what actually was happening is I was becoming myself, I was shifting and the that meant that some people could not accept this sudden version of me that had appeared and I respect that, they don’t need to, but at least I didn’t feel like I was pretending anymore, I became happier, lighter and more free and the people who stayed in my life accepted me for who I was and the ones that could not fell away and that is ok, I am not saying it was an easy process and I am sure there are people that have much far worse realities than me. But this saying inspired me to write this… perhaps start with a simple question “what is really valuable to me? Just really wanted to inspire a thinking process…..
